Autumn in Transylvania is breathtaking. Golden forests spread across the Carpathians, mist curls through the mountains and settles around medieval towers, and the markets fill with apples, walnuts, mushrooms, and the abundance of the season. It is the kind of beauty I dreamed about before moving here, and there are moments when it still catches me completely by surprise. Yet, as the air cools and the leaves begin to fall, I find myself aching for another kind of autumn—the on

There is a peculiar heartache that comes with leaving a country during political instability. The borders, paperwork, logistics, and difficulties of beginning again are expected. What I did not anticipate was how much departure would change the relationships around me. Leaving is rarely received as a neutral decision. People assign meaning to it, sometimes because they disagree with your reasons, sometimes because they are frightened for you, and sometimes simply because your

They are not the Germans we usually talk about when we remember the Nazi era. They are not primarily remembered through deportations, ghettos, or camps, although some who initially escaped would later be caught by the German advance across Europe. They were among those who left Germany while the future was still uncertain: Jews, political opponents, academics, writers, artists, professionals, and others who understood that something fundamental had changed before anyone could

Grounding is often offered as relief: a way to calm down, feel better, or create some distance from distress. There is nothing inherently wrong with relief. Sometimes the nervous system needs exactly that. But when the world is unstable, grief is active, or fear has a reasonable cause, feeling better is not always the most important objective. Sometimes the work is not to transcend what is happening, but to remain present enough to live within it without being overwhelmed. Th

This year, I walked through more grief than I thought I could handle. There were many moments when I was sure I would break. Sometimes I still feel like I might. This was not a year of gentle transition or peaceful endings. It was a year that felt cruel. I willingly left an ecosystem I loved more dearly than I had ever loved anything. I left a life that had grown thick with meaning and texture. I miss my dog and my old cat Hector with an ache that doesn’t leave. I miss feedin

Should auld acquaintance be forgot, And never brought to mind? (Should old friends be forgotten and never remembered?) Should auld acquaintance be forgot, And auld lang syne? (Should old relationships be forgotten, and the time we shared long ago?) For auld lang syne, my jo, For auld lang syne, (For the sake of old times, my dear, for the sake of what has been,) We’ll tak a cup o’ kindness yet, For auld lang syne. (we’ll still share a drink of goodwill for the sake of old tim

Immigration is often framed as a decisive break, the before and the after, but that framing hasn't matched my lived reality. What I have experienced instead is a long, unsettled middle. An experience where one foot remains planted in what I lost (or still attempting to untangle from), while the other figures out how to step into a life that is still forming. This in-between space is not dramatic or cinematic. It is quiet, demanding, and persistent. It follows me through ordin

I’ve been carrying a heavy mix of emotions lately. Back home, in the streets where I grew up, innocent and hardworking Mexican immigrants are being taken into big unmarked trucks — disappeared under the cover of night. Families are left wondering where their loved one is and if they will ever see them again. Dreams are erased. People who have built lives among people they thought were friends are treated like they don’t belong anymore. Watching those videos makes something in

My need to explain myself was louder when I was younger. My confidence filled rooms, asserting things I only half understood, held opinions the way you hold something you're not sure you're allowed to put down. I look back at some of those positions and wince. But I was also learning something in that period that took years to finish learning: what my own voice actually sounds like when it isn't performing for a room. Over time, my fire settled into something steadier and mor

Before Dracula made Transylvania synonymous with vampires, Romanian folklore already had its own restless dead. They were called strigoi, and they did not necessarily live in distant castles or belong to another world. They could be people you knew. That familiarity is what makes the strigoi so unsettling. The threat did not always come from somewhere beyond the village. It could come from the cemetery where your own family was buried, from someone who had recently died, or e

There comes a point in every great transition when the horizon disappears. The plans that once gave you direction crumble. The numbers stop making sense. The people who promised to stay fade into their own uncertainty. And suddenly, you’re left standing in the ashes of what used to feel solid, with no clear path ahead. It is a particular kind of emptiness because you have not only lost something behind you; you have lost your ability to picture what comes next. The old dream

There was a time when telling someone you were traveling from the United States required no explanation. You could say, I’m going to Europe for a few weeks, and people understood what you meant. You were going on vacation. Maybe you wanted to see old churches, eat good food, wander through cities you had only seen in photographs, or simply step away from ordinary life for a while. Unless you specifically said otherwise, nobody assumed your plane ticket represented a larger de

For those who have lost almost everything and are still daring to begin again. When you choose to move, truly move, not as a tourist or an adventurer but as someone rebuilding from the ashes, you step into a life that demands trust. Not the easy kind of trust that comes with clear plans and safety nets, but the kind that asks you to keep moving even when you cannot see very far ahead. There is only so much you can plan before moving to another country. Eventually you arrive,

Relocating to another country brings plenty of obvious challenges. There are documents to gather, money to save, belongings to sort, goodbyes to make, and an extraordinary number of practical decisions that suddenly seem to depend on one another. What I was less prepared for was how much relocation would change my relationships with people who weren’t moving at all. When you make a significant change to your life, other people inevitably have feelings about it. Some will surp

The image we conjure of the hearth is solid —it's a stone fireplace, a warm table, a circle of chairs where people gather. But what happens when the hearthkeeper herself has no home? When life is in transition, when the house is sold, when exile or migration means everything familiar is left behind — does the hearth go out? The truth is, the hearth has never only been brick and mortar. It has always been carried in the hands and hearts of those who tend it. History is full of